My chains are gone.

So tonight I went to wave church. It had been a while since i have gone because I've had no one to go with. But, i always love going when I go. Carl talked about bondage of sin. Really just being chained to our sin.

His main point was, why are they so many Christians bound by sin when there is so much freedom in Jesus? 

So many people live with and are so used to their chains that it is a part of everyday life. One of the bondages that he explained to be so normal was insecurity.

Another one was negativity. There are people who live such a negative life and are so negative towards others.

The more he talked about it the more i found myself agreeing and relating to everything he said. That how much my relationship with God is constricted because of the things i hold onto.

I've got to be honest. I have to talk about this somehow to someone. I don't know if anyone reads this or not. It doesn't matter. But a lot of times i find myself wondering who can i talk to about things in my life. I fall short with the answer sometimes. Maybe it's just me and my insecurity thinking that I'm not cared for that much.

There are so many things in my life that i need to shake and break free from.

I'm so ashamedly imperfect.

But, tonight we sang over and over again. "My chains are gone, I've been set free, my God my Saviour has ransomed me. And like a flood his mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace"

I want to be able to sing that with my whole entire heart.

Free of bondages and habbits and problems.

I know that I'll always be a slave to sin. But, it doesn't have to be this much.