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For the past like two weeks, it has been straight up chillage. Sick. Life can't get much better than that. 

Yayyy

Its Thursday June 5th

My car still sucks

I'm getting a Fender Rhodes very soon

The band is playing this saturday for relay for life (hopefully)

Work is good

I'm trying to write a song for me and jon's side project

I need to spend more alone time with God

I need to fix my tire

My hair needs cut

I need to fix my 60's tele

Now lets see what i can mark off my list that i will try to have accomplished by next week!

Someday, she will be the coolest girl I've ever met.

My dear, 

This time it's just you and me

But there is no time to be

Like every stupid girl

That there is

But I don't care

'Cause Honestly just you and me

Is enough for me

Go ahead

Tell me what I'm thinking of

I think I'm thinking of you

Are you strong?

Can you stand your ground?

When no one else is around

You must learn how to be alone

'Cause in God you are strong

Go ahead

Tell me what I'm thinking of

I think I'm thinking of you

When you smile

Does it fill the room?

Do you shine with your own light

A star in the darkest night

When you laugh 

Will it warm my heart?

When no one else is around

Am i enough for you?

Go ahead

Tell me what I am thinking of

I think I'm thinking of you

Excitement

So, obviously I'm 20 years old, born on september 11th 1987, and raised in a christian home. I was homeschool, I learnded to read using the Bible, I was in AWANA FOR 13 years, went to church 2 or 3 times a week since i can remember. If i was reading about someone else with these same i would think that this person must have a pretty good Christian walk. Well, I can say that It certainly has gotten me out of trouble. However, I cant say that I've always kept God close to me in everything I do. I have to an extent. I'm good at staying out of trouble. I have my down falls of course. 

But anyways, with everything I've grown up with, the one thing I can't say I've picked up along the way is my daily quiet time. I've touched it here and there but I've never had a steady one. 

Recently I've been hard at work on myself. I've been trying to be excited about my faith and I've been on my way with a slow start. So next is my quiet time and hopefully a lot of other things will go with it. 

New song?

I fell on my face hard

I've come to the end of the trail

the end of my life

where everything runs together

that place where i'm shackled by sin

i've shacked my life

but your love carries me

My chains have been broken

you have set me free

you set me free

this freedom dilemma is over

it brings me to my knees

your love for me

I cry from the dark "lord!
will you save me from all my risks!?"

a ship that has run a shore
enthralled by my selfish desires
but misguided i sail

in your light i see

My chains have been broken

you have set me free

you set me free

this freedom dilemma is over

it brings me to my knees

your love for me

My chains are gone.

So tonight I went to wave church. It had been a while since i have gone because I've had no one to go with. But, i always love going when I go. Carl talked about bondage of sin. Really just being chained to our sin.

His main point was, why are they so many Christians bound by sin when there is so much freedom in Jesus? 

So many people live with and are so used to their chains that it is a part of everyday life. One of the bondages that he explained to be so normal was insecurity.

Another one was negativity. There are people who live such a negative life and are so negative towards others.

The more he talked about it the more i found myself agreeing and relating to everything he said. That how much my relationship with God is constricted because of the things i hold onto.

I've got to be honest. I have to talk about this somehow to someone. I don't know if anyone reads this or not. It doesn't matter. But a lot of times i find myself wondering who can i talk to about things in my life. I fall short with the answer sometimes. Maybe it's just me and my insecurity thinking that I'm not cared for that much.

There are so many things in my life that i need to shake and break free from.

I'm so ashamedly imperfect.

But, tonight we sang over and over again. "My chains are gone, I've been set free, my God my Saviour has ransomed me. And like a flood his mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace"

I want to be able to sing that with my whole entire heart.

Free of bondages and habbits and problems.

I know that I'll always be a slave to sin. But, it doesn't have to be this much.

new song

Look towards the sky

And see his glory

He's always there

When you're afraid

He comforts your hear

So don't be scared

So don't give up

Don't give in

Don't let go of the love he is

When he looks at you

He sees something so beautiful

You're so beautiful

When he Thinks of you

He knows he made you wonderful

You're so wonderful

He's always by your side

When your alone

With desperaion

He's by your side

You'll make it through

This time

Can you hear him say

"I belive in you my child"