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For the past like two weeks, it has been straight up chillage. Sick. Life can't get much better than that. 

Yayyy

Its Thursday June 5th

My car still sucks

I'm getting a Fender Rhodes very soon

The band is playing this saturday for relay for life (hopefully)

Work is good

I'm trying to write a song for me and jon's side project

I need to spend more alone time with God

I need to fix my tire

My hair needs cut

I need to fix my 60's tele

Now lets see what i can mark off my list that i will try to have accomplished by next week!

Someday, she will be the coolest girl I've ever met.

My dear, 

This time it's just you and me

But there is no time to be

Like every stupid girl

That there is

But I don't care

'Cause Honestly just you and me

Is enough for me

Go ahead

Tell me what I'm thinking of

I think I'm thinking of you

Are you strong?

Can you stand your ground?

When no one else is around

You must learn how to be alone

'Cause in God you are strong

Go ahead

Tell me what I'm thinking of

I think I'm thinking of you

When you smile

Does it fill the room?

Do you shine with your own light

A star in the darkest night

When you laugh 

Will it warm my heart?

When no one else is around

Am i enough for you?

Go ahead

Tell me what I am thinking of

I think I'm thinking of you

Excitement

So, obviously I'm 20 years old, born on september 11th 1987, and raised in a christian home. I was homeschool, I learnded to read using the Bible, I was in AWANA FOR 13 years, went to church 2 or 3 times a week since i can remember. If i was reading about someone else with these same i would think that this person must have a pretty good Christian walk. Well, I can say that It certainly has gotten me out of trouble. However, I cant say that I've always kept God close to me in everything I do. I have to an extent. I'm good at staying out of trouble. I have my down falls of course. 

But anyways, with everything I've grown up with, the one thing I can't say I've picked up along the way is my daily quiet time. I've touched it here and there but I've never had a steady one. 

Recently I've been hard at work on myself. I've been trying to be excited about my faith and I've been on my way with a slow start. So next is my quiet time and hopefully a lot of other things will go with it. 

New song?

I fell on my face hard

I've come to the end of the trail

the end of my life

where everything runs together

that place where i'm shackled by sin

i've shacked my life

but your love carries me

My chains have been broken

you have set me free

you set me free

this freedom dilemma is over

it brings me to my knees

your love for me

I cry from the dark "lord!
will you save me from all my risks!?"

a ship that has run a shore
enthralled by my selfish desires
but misguided i sail

in your light i see

My chains have been broken

you have set me free

you set me free

this freedom dilemma is over

it brings me to my knees

your love for me

My chains are gone.

So tonight I went to wave church. It had been a while since i have gone because I've had no one to go with. But, i always love going when I go. Carl talked about bondage of sin. Really just being chained to our sin.

His main point was, why are they so many Christians bound by sin when there is so much freedom in Jesus? 

So many people live with and are so used to their chains that it is a part of everyday life. One of the bondages that he explained to be so normal was insecurity.

Another one was negativity. There are people who live such a negative life and are so negative towards others.

The more he talked about it the more i found myself agreeing and relating to everything he said. That how much my relationship with God is constricted because of the things i hold onto.

I've got to be honest. I have to talk about this somehow to someone. I don't know if anyone reads this or not. It doesn't matter. But a lot of times i find myself wondering who can i talk to about things in my life. I fall short with the answer sometimes. Maybe it's just me and my insecurity thinking that I'm not cared for that much.

There are so many things in my life that i need to shake and break free from.

I'm so ashamedly imperfect.

But, tonight we sang over and over again. "My chains are gone, I've been set free, my God my Saviour has ransomed me. And like a flood his mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace"

I want to be able to sing that with my whole entire heart.

Free of bondages and habbits and problems.

I know that I'll always be a slave to sin. But, it doesn't have to be this much.

new song

Look towards the sky

And see his glory

He's always there

When you're afraid

He comforts your hear

So don't be scared

So don't give up

Don't give in

Don't let go of the love he is

When he looks at you

He sees something so beautiful

You're so beautiful

When he Thinks of you

He knows he made you wonderful

You're so wonderful

He's always by your side

When your alone

With desperaion

He's by your side

You'll make it through

This time

Can you hear him say

"I belive in you my child"

ok

Sometimes I think I should quit playing guitar all together and find a different hobby.

Useless

Last summer I had the an amazing opportunity to go on a missions trip in Czech Republic. I also had the amazing opportunity to teach as much of the English language as i could to in 4 days to Romanian cultured people. We had flash cards and games and all these tools to help them learn. Also, of course we used those tools to incorporate the Gospel. However, two of the people in our group, a brother and his little sister, were both deaf and only knew european sign language. You might think, "Well golly gosh gym class Andrew, isn't all sign language the same?". No. It isn't. It's just as different as speaking another language. Like speaking another language with your hands. Weird. 

 Well, this girl was so excited that Americans came and were teacher her English. However, I could never seem to remember her name. I didn't think anything of it at first. But, i thought... well she has a weird name so its okay. Boy was I wrong. On one of the last days on the trip, at the end of the day. We were tired, hungry, thirsty, hot, and so ready for some familiar food. We headed into the down town to hit up the McDonalds and pig out. We were almost there and I heard someone shout my name from a pretty far distance. I looked over and it was that little girl. I didn't think anything of it. I waved smiled and went on my way. Well, not to much later, it hit me. It hit hard. Here i am my ignorant and naive self strollin' to Mcee d's and a deaf girl who didn't even know any English until we showed up, could shout my name and i didn't even notice, OR remember her name. Oh my goodness. This girl at the end of one day of English lesson, learned all of the colors, animals, random objects and stuff on flash cards, AND could SPEAK them in English, AND she's deaf. I didn't even go out of my way to remember her name. To be honest, I still don't know it. 

I cant help but tell God that she doesn't deserve to be they way she does and go through what she goes through. It's not fair. Why her? God, I deserve to be like that. It should be me in that situation. Then maybe I  would learn to think about others more than me, or even strive to be a better person. Maybe I would come close to living up to my potential. Maybe then I would learn to be thankful for everything in my life. Why God would you be so good to me when I don't deserve it?

On Your Mark. Get set. Blog.

Hmm... So i never thought i would ever find myself blogging, but, here i am. I don't know who i am typing to. No one really but me i guess.

Well, this is what I've learned recently from my recent voyages in what we call "life". I so easily compromise out of impatience. Instead of waiting for the greatest thing God could have for me, i compromise my expectations.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11

-Andrew